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Suriyati Jakaria
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20th June 1985
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2008 Event

11:09 AM, Thursday, May 22, 2008

okay.. im back with this url.. like i say i didnt delete the blog.. just changed the url.. the purpose im writing here now.. simply because i want him to read somethings in here.. anyway... i say this cute QUOTE somewhere...

quotes



so its been 3 1/2 days i didnt hear his voice.. we didnt communicate at all on the phone.. all we did was.....



me msging him ..........

"d,b da otw hm."

"b da otw 2 werk."

"b hm."

same goes to him...



well whatever la ehk... yesterday i didnt get any msgs frm him when he reached home... maybe dier luper or sengajer or maybe kuar or what...



whatever la... i really da malas nak pk ni sume... oh ya.. btw... i contacted back sky... yes!! SKY.. i need a shoulder to cry on.... as for my tunang, i dun think he eva take note of his actions... u wanna know why..



simply because....



i hold on to my words... i want to change for the better.. i dont want to angry at him over little things.. i wont show any true emotions like bingit membingit... i talked to him in my soft tones.. try to stay calm... and what was his reactions????

PEKIK2!!!!!!!!!!!

TENGKING HERDIK!!!!!!!!!!

EVEN ACCUSED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



who the hell he thinks i am????



adik2 kau....??? kawan2 kau????????????



adik2 kau n kawan2 kau pun kau tak buat gini lar!!!!



haiz.. ape la nasib aku.... ape aku buat serba serbi tak kene... mungkin aku ngan dier tak ader jodoh... entah la.. sampai mane aku nak bertahan menahan perasaan... haiz....



on last monday,after we came back from melaka,his back experiencing some muscle strains...

at first i wanna meet him.. den he said he was sick... keep on shouting that he was sick.. was dissapointed uh.. but then i told him to go clinic... den he flared at me... later... i said wats the difference between later and now... then he said he wanna rest.. den i said fine uh... later i turun and accompany him... and u knw what was his reply?? he shouted at me saying that i dont trust him...



i was like... HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!! niat i nak accompany him... nak jumpe dier... tak pasal uh after clinic he wants to rest at home... go ahead... i just go back on my own... i dont mind... as long dpt jumpe jap and accompany him....


haiz.... i was dissapointed and all... i dont know whatelse i wanna do... i was being patience... i was holding back my emotions controlling my anger... he just flared.... as if he totally dont care about my feelings....

haiz... i met sky right after that conversation with naz.... was crying... i just couldnt hold back my tears... we were relaxing by the beach and all... i was relaxed and all... chit chating... laughing.. it was a good night.. nevertheless my mind was thinking hard about him.... haiz... all this night, sky was the one accompany me to talk on the phone.. keep my mind off him.. if he was not around,i would be come crazy for all naz's doing... i just want him to change... i want him to change for the better...

if i n him cant work out, all i want him to do is to tell my parents that im not the caused for all this mishaps... its him that cant changed.. im changing and i wanna change... as for him... haiz... speechless... and i dont want him to think that its because of sky that we broke up.. no.. its not becuase of sky... its because diri sendiri tak betul.... haiz.... whatever it is... i want him to know... that i love him all my heart and evenif we wont be together later on,i have no regrets having him in my life... i became stronger... but hey.. just remember back in my mind, i will still want you to be in my arms back... someone who has change for a better man...

dear... if u really cant changed... u knw wt u shld do.. dn hold me back too long...

ps: i love you..