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The Lady
Suriyati Jakaria
a.k.a Su/Yaya/Ana/Yati
20th June 1985
UOB Sales Banking


WishList
1. Quit Smoking
2. A new phone
3. Quit Levis
4. New Job
5. Rebond my hair
6. LeArn to cook good food

The Past
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008

Others

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im a sick baby.. its been 2days im down with fever... my last day at levis,i was on mc... haizzz.... i am sure they think ill of me... but seriously.. im sick... my manaeger keep on calling regarding this particular jeans... but its really not my problem anymore... im no longer working under jay gee... but today i will b going to levis marina square to pass my mc... i really feel suspicious about this faincee of mine... he went out of the house,never msged me.. he even off his hp... we are suppose to meet at around 215.. but then we already went out at 115... i know the journey from his place to mine only need 30min... what is he going out so early???? how come never msged me anything and how come he offed his hp...

im going to wait for his call.. i wont get ready any sooner.. jz wait for his call...

wello... wello... im back from work.. today gonna be my 3rd last day... bt i thought of nt turning up on the fri... my last day there.. simply because they wanna me to stay till late due to mid night sale... im sorry,babe..

earlier on met my fiancee... we talked at the void deck.. he will be going reservist tommorow... hate all these things... but thats kay.... on sunday.. he gonna teman me to go to some jemputan... dpt jumpe.. yeay2

im turning in....

gdnite

so boo!!!!!!! today is my off day... went to northpoint.. i thought of wanting to buy a gold necklace n pendant... so i dropped by this shop.. TAKA JEWELRY!!!! i quarell with the sales assistant.. screw u,bitch.. who the hell u think u are.. u think malay customers dont understand mandarin.. i understand a single freak u were saying,bitch.. padan muke kene dgn aku...i told her that i wanna to talk to her in-charge.... she said the in charge is nt in at the moment... and she asked me why.. so i replied to her in mandarin,mind u... i asked her why she told her colleague that im MAH FANT!!!! well she was shocked u see to hear and actually believing that i can speak in CHINESE....... if u think im troublesome,go n screw urself and dont work as customer servicer provider.... poor customer service...

urgh!!!!

okay lets drop the subject.. so yesterday night.. he called me... suprisingly he called... he didnt want to let me go... i was suprised... stiff conversation also... seriously.. my heart became numb lil bit yesterday... try and imagine this... been holding and bearing my anger for the past 2 and half years.. i only blowed up once... seriously.. burok kalau aku mengamuk... tolong.. jgn la mintak i mengamuk... pls........... im nt like u.. suke tunjuk perasaan..... selagi i leh sabar n nak sabar.. i akan sabar... whatever la ehk....................

pls win my heart back... im like moving away frm u...

well thats for all.... bye all..

okay just reached home... thought of meeting HIM after work... but THEN!!!!!!!!
he went out with his frens... so kay fine... he said he gonna call me at around 11plus... i dn know hw true is that.... bt whatever it is... im sure all prepared to hear anything... hmm... somethings telling me tt he gonna agree to let me go.. well good for him if he were to do that.. like i say... IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!!!!!!!!

so back to my life... so im counting down to my last day of work... wowoooowowowowowhhhhoooooooooooo.......................................
tommorow im off.. so another 4more working days.. and after that....
GOODBYE JAY GEE MELWANI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOODBYE LEVIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THEN 2weeks of freedom!!!!!!!!!! im gonna shop one of the days uh...
buy new clothes for my new work... well hey... im the type of person who is sooo casual.. i dont really dress up... but this work need to me dress up.. wth!!! hhmmpppzz!!!!!! so what should i wear?????? any ideas??? n u knw... majority of my frens who knows that im switching to UOB.. they will go...
"Engkau pakai Office wear??????!!!! hahahaha... confrim terbalik siak dunia!!!!!!"
or
"Eh kau dpt kerje office... kau ader diploma???"
and only minority
"Alhamdullilah.. kau dpt kerje yg lebih baik dari sekarang... rezeki tu"
even my mum dont give me such support... my mum told me..
"hhhmmm tgk jer la kau leh tahan ngan kerje ni tak... kau tu mane leh duduk kerje diam2 nyer..."

hhmmm... entah la...

so hey.. today after work, aku gi main pool kat lucky plaza... play pool with sky... mendak betul main ngan dier... tak der fight... he was suprised that my "skill" semakin bagus... and on top of that.. ader satu chinese ni ajak aku challenge siul ngan aku.... tapi kan... aku kalah.. well aku kalah secare percume.. its my last ball but then aku termasuk lobang yg aku tak aim.... whatever it is aku puas hati uh... hehehe... dier ajak aku main lagi satu round then aku ckp uh aku Go to GO ... kecian sky tunggu aku... well maybe one of the reason aku main quite power than other days coz aku tgh pikiran pasal naz... entah la... hati aku tak tenang.. even at this very moment... tapi of course ketawer terbahak2 when main ngan sky.. dier siak... aku tgh shoot kacau muke aku la... cue aku la... aku geram2 aku ckp..." suke eh kacau2 i... i tau la.. i main bagus..." and he went... " ah ini la dier orgnyer... muke tak tau malu.... hehehehe... masuk bakul angkat sendirik".. siak dier... hhmm tk per2......

so after that pergi Orchard point jap... jumpe lyn... aku at first ajak dier if dier free uh.. tapi alankgkah boring nyer... dier kerje afternoon.. yg lain2 sume sibuk ngan husband, family, fiancee and boyfriend.. so boh pient uh kuar ngan sky.. sky pun bosan kat umah... aku tgk lyn kecian uh... entah la... dier citekan aku pasal hidup dier ngan fiancee dier dulu... haiz... ader org yg lagi rabak dari aku... and ader org lagi SIOW dari aku... haiz............... tapi tak per... aku just proceed with the break when he agreed to it.. its for his own good uh... aku aper ader.. selalu menyakitkan hati dier... ok la... thats for all.... aku tgh tgu call si dek ni...

BABI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AKU CALL MCM NAK GILER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TAK ANGKAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FINE UH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aku nak try slow talk... bt then.... haiz...
tk pe la... mmg da nasib aku gini....

okay.. im turning in...

PS: SUFFY sorry i tk dpt turun ur special day.. im working.. anyway congratez....

YES I LOVE HIM!!! patience??? getting thinner...
aper benefit if i were to carry on???
i was blamed for everything.. having me in his life is pure miserable...
for what he wants to be someone who makes his life miserable????
u think he wants tat??? i dont think so........
semakin hari hati aku semakin beku...
im preparing myself to hear the words from his mouth...
the words that gonna seperate us.........
i dont want to shed any tears........

hey u know what?? i dont think i can wait any longer....
Reason being my dad gonna downpayment to the caterer very soon..
somewhere early next month.. haiz...
maybe i should give him a call... i shld be prepared to get his scoldings again..
wanna knw why??? because i pester him with the decision making...
but i got no choice... if i were to wait for his answer on the 18th of june and the answers gonna be the ones that i predicted, whats the point my dad waste his money on the caterer.. im very sure he gonna get furious with me.. frustrated of course... im sure he gonna blame me... oh well.. as usual.. me the caused.. i think i was born by mistake... haiz.. so okay..if his decision wants me to stay, then im relieved... but hahaha.. that wont happen........................

why am i so confident that he gonna agree to let me go??? like i say,im not worth it...

so lets talk about yesterday.. sucks la yeah.. bt.. i had fun... besh giler... ader org kekenal ngan i... cibai irving.. kasi number aku... ok la not bad... tapi tak layan uh.. aku tgh pening pasal mat aku ni...

okay la... aku try call dier...

hello,everyone... hey... will be deleting this blog soon... simply because.. i wanna move on... i wanna delete my past... how i wish i can delete my memories with him just like that deleting this blog... just click delete and "POOF!!!!!!!!!" its deleted... u know...i know that he will let me go. he is taking his time to say it... u wanna know why?? because im nt worth to be by his side... he dont need me... he just dont... i know he will be okay without me... perhaps he is better off without me.. well as u all know me... im bad... nothing good about me... ZERO... tuuuttttuuuutttt..... just take your time to say it,okay??? and hey... next time dont say all those sweet words when u dn mean it okay...?? it hurts to know that its just sweet words coming out from ur mouth n not from ur heart.. dn say it wen u dn meant it sincerely................

earlier had a long talk with him... well basicly he made me feel that i was the caused for everything.. yeah.. he's right.. im the caused... accepted it... so already made up my mind that he is better off without me... he said he needed time to think.. so i gave him time... i told him to think it over till he comes back from his reservist... i think its 18th of o june... yah.. thats the day when i will be reporting to my new work at uob.. reporting my first day... and in the same time 2days before my birthday.. who knws we will eventually broke up on my birthday.. dont worry la,dear.. i will be prepared for it okay...

haiz...

just matter of time..... there will be no more mydarklittlesecrets... ouh well... so how was my day 22/05??? well the day went by slow... i dont know why....

today gonna be a long day ahead... wanna know why??? because i need to relief at Plaza Singapura till midnight.. they will be having mid night sale... have to help out.... yah so why me?? well its always been me lor... ok la dats for all... im outta here..... gd nite everybody..

I love u and miss u...

PS: dont say that u ever love me when u dont mean it... dont leave it left said with just sweet words of urs.... it hurts.... rest assured about whatever i ever tell u.. because whatever i said.. i sincerely mean it....



sweet dreams,syg... gd nite...
Muacks!! Muacks!! Muacks!!!!

okay.. im back with this url.. like i say i didnt delete the blog.. just changed the url.. the purpose im writing here now.. simply because i want him to read somethings in here.. anyway... i say this cute QUOTE somewhere...





so its been 3 1/2 days i didnt hear his voice.. we didnt communicate at all on the phone.. all we did was.....



me msging him ..........

"d,b da otw hm."

"b da otw 2 werk."

"b hm."

same goes to him...



well whatever la ehk... yesterday i didnt get any msgs frm him when he reached home... maybe dier luper or sengajer or maybe kuar or what...



whatever la... i really da malas nak pk ni sume... oh ya.. btw... i contacted back sky... yes!! SKY.. i need a shoulder to cry on.... as for my tunang, i dun think he eva take note of his actions... u wanna know why..



simply because....



i hold on to my words... i want to change for the better.. i dont want to angry at him over little things.. i wont show any true emotions like bingit membingit... i talked to him in my soft tones.. try to stay calm... and what was his reactions????

PEKIK2!!!!!!!!!!!

TENGKING HERDIK!!!!!!!!!!

EVEN ACCUSED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



who the hell he thinks i am????



adik2 kau....??? kawan2 kau????????????



adik2 kau n kawan2 kau pun kau tak buat gini lar!!!!



haiz.. ape la nasib aku.... ape aku buat serba serbi tak kene... mungkin aku ngan dier tak ader jodoh... entah la.. sampai mane aku nak bertahan menahan perasaan... haiz....



on last monday,after we came back from melaka,his back experiencing some muscle strains...

at first i wanna meet him.. den he said he was sick... keep on shouting that he was sick.. was dissapointed uh.. but then i told him to go clinic... den he flared at me... later... i said wats the difference between later and now... then he said he wanna rest.. den i said fine uh... later i turun and accompany him... and u knw what was his reply?? he shouted at me saying that i dont trust him...



i was like... HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!! niat i nak accompany him... nak jumpe dier... tak pasal uh after clinic he wants to rest at home... go ahead... i just go back on my own... i dont mind... as long dpt jumpe jap and accompany him....

haiz.... i was dissapointed and all... i dont know whatelse i wanna do... i was being patience... i was holding back my emotions controlling my anger... he just flared.... as if he totally dont care about my feelings....

haiz... i met sky right after that conversation with naz.... was crying... i just couldnt hold back my tears... we were relaxing by the beach and all... i was relaxed and all... chit chating... laughing.. it was a good night.. nevertheless my mind was thinking hard about him.... haiz... all this night, sky was the one accompany me to talk on the phone.. keep my mind off him.. if he was not around,i would be come crazy for all naz's doing... i just want him to change... i want him to change for the better...

if i n him cant work out, all i want him to do is to tell my parents that im not the caused for all this mishaps... its him that cant changed.. im changing and i wanna change... as for him... haiz... speechless... and i dont want him to think that its because of sky that we broke up.. no.. its not becuase of sky... its because diri sendiri tak betul.... haiz.... whatever it is... i want him to know... that i love him all my heart and evenif we wont be together later on,i have no regrets having him in my life... i became stronger... but hey.. just remember back in my mind, i will still want you to be in my arms back... someone who has change for a better man...

dear... if u really cant changed... u knw wt u shld do.. dn hold me back too long...

ps: i love you..

so recently went Melaka with my parents,lil bro and my fiancee... the trip was alright.. just few set backs... there was this mak which was damn irritating... so mulut kecoh.. hate her... memekak... pekik2 scolding her kids... relek uh makcik... ggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....
then all the way,there was this pakcik pun memekak.. he was singing karaoke like nobody business... as if he owned that trip.. wtf... we all paid for that "enjoying" trip... suare sedap tk pe... ishk... that was the last time im going with that travel agency... sungguh mendak.... the tour guide... shoik sendirik..wteva la pakcik... as for my fiancee.. soo poor thing... his back aches.... hhmmmm........ will upload some pix wen i get my hands on them... hehehehehe... overall i enjoyed my days with him.. bt some tings to be improved on..gt to go now... bye..

wello... everyone.... noone knows im having another account.. i juz changed the url.. thats all.. i wont delete this blog... oh.. its a no no thingy.. anyway earlier in the afternoon i met my girlfrens... really had fun... da lamer tk hang out gitu.. ouh well... i really dont care about him anymore... jgn harap aku nk baik2 ngan kau.... aku relek.. tak nak marah2 kau.. tapi kau pijak kepale aku.. dier ingat aku aper siol....



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this is my 111th entry... wahahahah... everyone was like happy mothers day kinda thingy... its a plain bullshit... everyday is mothers day.. u can make our moms smile everyday.. rememberance la konon... rememberance my foot... u dn need some kinda alarm to remind us that mums are special.. it should be from the heart... as for me personally.. making my mum smile and less worried for me is sufficient to make our mum happy and im the best daughter in the whole wide world... i mean.. cmon uh.. by giving our mums things can feel they are special?? our mum dont need such recognition.. all they need care, concern, love and attention from us.. thats all... its not i got no money to buy my mum things... but heck.. i gave her more than the value of money.. eventho i hurt her feelings... but i wont fail to win her love back... because she has the love that noone can actually shower to me n my life...

ok back to my life... so... tommorow gonna be the day... yeay... so stay tune..

guess what???? rezeki mendatang.. Alhamdullilah.. tak putus rezeki daripada YG MAHA ESA.. amin...

i got a job.. job that i always wanted...

working as sales marketing and finance at UOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


minah2 office la... tak pernah ku terbayang..

went for the interview... it was great... they were impressed by my personality and my confidence... my goodness i cant believe it... have to wear typical formal wear... hahaha.. need to buy some new clothes...

so my end of my services with jaygee melwani will be on 30th of may... and will be starting to work with UOB on the 18t of june.. that is 2days away from my birthday.. excited la bebey... hehehe.....

take note... i dun have any qualification.. no diploma no nothing... but i won the position... confidence, positive actions and most of all willingness to learn.. eagerness... hehe... yeay yeay..

so my dear accompanied me all the way.. waited for me for almost 30mins.. yesh.. the interview was actually around 20minutes.... im with them that long... i thought i wont be able to get the position due to my qualification but my dear build my confidence up.. he was very sweet... i love him.... and so the day after that, the interviewer called me up to ask me when can i sign my appointment letter... i was overjoyed.. it was indirect approached telling me that i got the job.. jhahahahahaha.. uber coolness...

will be going to his office on this coming thursday.. im sooooo excited..... but im sure i need to pass some written exam... i've to know all the things of uob within 2weeks... wish me luck...

a pic to share...

after the interview at United Square UOB

ok so... im crying suddenly.. im not too sure why... i saw my friend's wedding photo and has my all other ex-classmates in it.. we are all grown up and our own paths... i still remember when we were in secondary school.. the selenger bachin in us.. haha..

den i saw someone's love video.. how do met and all... its all sweet tho... well my love life isnt that sweet however im apreciating it every second but of course minus all the pain that he caused of course.. forgive him but never forget... hehehehe....

so my last day would be on the 29th may.. haiz... im sure i will be all teary.. this current company was the longest that i stay... the rest less than a year.. no no.. less than 7months.. which is around half a year... ouh well.. for now not gonna look for another job.. relax for awhile.. deary is being understanding.. letting me to rest like amonth or so... oh dont worry about my wedding's saving... for what i've now is sufficient..

mak andam, invitation cards, henna and naz extra helping hand...

its all more than enough.. about the money downpayment for the house has its solution alreadu.. but we wont count on it soo much...

well got to go now... got to get bath and dress.. meeting my deary later... will be having a heavy breakfast at changi... wwwooooowweeee... gdbye everyone...