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The Lady
Suriyati Jakaria
a.k.a Su/Yaya/Ana/Yati
20th June 1985
UOB Sales Banking


WishList
1. Quit Smoking
2. A new phone
3. Quit Levis
4. New Job
5. Rebond my hair
6. LeArn to cook good food

The Past
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008

Others

-Sarina - Has - Inaa -
- Deea - Zurah -

so my last day would be either on 29th may or 19th may.. simply because the sooner i get out of that place the better... aku ader ker tak der ker kat levis... tetap itu levis bukak per... aku takder bukannyer itu levis go bankrupt... i hate henry and sam!!!!!!!!!!

hello... okay one news im gonna break in here... im gonna quit my job real soon.. im sick and tired of this current job... imagine u're on mc and the manager made a real big fuss about it... why because its weekend... wtf!!!!! the manager even gonna chnged my off day to the day i took my off... its ridiculous... urgh im not gonna say anyting anymore....im just gonna end my entry here... fuck JAY GEE

BOO!!! IM HAPPY!! THATS ALL MATTERS!!!!

so today a reallllll stuuppiiiiiddd day for me.. so dear accompanied me during lunch cum dinner at around 430pm... we were like soo laughing n soo much fun... well i can see we missed each other company.. i didnt realized that my BONIA purse was not with me... i was like searching for it high and low.. and most of all i only realized my purse was not with me when i finished my break and my dear already on his way back home... i was like oh gosh... was smsing my dear regarding it.. and i was like relieved wen he told me that the purse was with him... he didnt come to VIVO to give me my purse back as he is working today... so we will be meeting after his work.. he will come to my place to pass my purse.. poor dear.. will be having our breakfast together tommorow.. i am sooo cant wait... ok i got to go... bye all...

i got few good news

1) i will be getting some cash end of this month.. some GST OFFSET PACKAGE thingy... ini untuk orang2 yg 21 tahun dan keatas.. so budak2 yg belum lagi cukup umor.. tolong tgk jer okay??? hahaha.. jahat seh aku... well syukur allahamdullilah..
2) me n him.. da okay la dok.. nope i didnt msged him and he didnt msged me.. but i called him.. no i didnt talk nively.. i just need to vent my anger out... so our conversation lasted less than 5minutes... and that less than 5minute conversation turned out to be okay... we are back together... there was one part where he said was soo tounching... "i masih loving-ly ngan u lar"... hehe..
3) my abg sponsor berkat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4) photobucket da okay.....






my hamster.. snow n puteh

guess what??? today i took an urgent leave.... im really not in the mood to work.. besides i broke down and cried... i was outside.. was talking to this particular person on the phone.. and i broke down... hystericallly cried.. so we met... out of friendship... that particular person accompanied me.. brought along with others... bought a tent and headed down to east coast beach... oh if u are thinking of sky.. let me give u another hint.. went there by bus and cab... so u tink its sky???? go n figure out.. my head wasnt in a gd shape.. migrains.... fuck i hate it... we all mandi2 uh... eventho i was there all smilling but only god knows that im thinking of him... i read the message that i gave him last 2days.. the one and only message... thats the last time i messaged him... oh btw the way today another successful day that i didnt contact him... i just need to keep telling myself that he is better off without me.... okay back to the story....after the mandi2,we left at around 9plus... den had our dinner and then went back home... took 31 and alighted at tamp interchange... and after that took 969... so reached home at around 11plus.. i feel like slapping myself... wnna knw?? simply because im soo stupid.. im all sad abt the break up thingy.. cried and all... but what about him?? i bet he is sleeping away and busy at work... i dont ever thinks that he ever thinks of me... ouh well... like i say... i think he is happy now... happy without me... well thats good uh... starting to miss him badly but i have to have my stand... i must just let it go... he is better off without me....

oh well... its 0121hrs.. im still wide awake.. i should take some rest..working afternoon shift... will be doing closing at vivo.. ouh well... just helping out... once in awhile.. wont hurt,right€????

gd nite...

first of all thanx for the advice fy.. but im really sicked and tired of getting taking advantage of... i mean.. i really gave it up... i mean who cares.. u think he cares??? if he cares,he would look for me by now... do u think if he mind losing me??? hell no... well congratulations to myself... i didnt even have a thought of contacting him the whole day which is yesterday.... i will not give in this time... and if my actions now would end up in a big mess... let it be... if he dont give a single damn thing,i dont see why must i give a shit of it...

eventho i am sad abt the whole thingy,i still have to accept the fact uh... that he is better of without me.. i know he is angry.. forever angry... he has never have the thought to make things right... coax me or whatever tingy.. but to think of coaxing, i dont think it will ever happen... well from the start i know he keeps on yelling at me... "U SHOULD KNOW WHAT??!!! I MANE TAHU NAK PUJUK??!!!" so sue,get that in ur brain that such thing wont happen.... so again he will just wait there for me to messaged me and all.. he wont be the one to mesaged me first uh... ego uh... or maybe take things for granted that i will come beg and beg him.. make him feel superior... make him feel that he is way bigger than me and i should tunduk to him... well this has to stop.... i cant keep on doing it again and again.. it really eating me inside...

orite this my 100th entry.. hehe whatever... im trying my very best to stay cool as much as i can.. i let my dear go yesterday.. i didnt hear from him eversince and i didnt even msged him... seriously im noone special... i got nothing to be my his side... yes im looking down on myself.. as much as he told me to... i just cant help.. its really stuck in my brain... a loser i am... well i guess its okay... as long as i feel like he deserve someone better,i will just stay away.. wont be contacting him... i mean what i say this time... i dont want him to suffer.... i dont want him to divorce me at the end of the day... im just not good enough.. maybe someone else is much more better being patience for him and be the right gal... im nowhere any of it... haiz...
let me summarize what i think of myself...

1) big spender
-like to buy thing that i dont really need.
e.g threw 1/4popcorns after the movie. bought a big combo eventho i juz had my meal. bought the combo juz because i want to munch the popcorns.
2) rude child
- remain quiet
e.g someone came but i didnt went out to SALAM the visitor. reason being i was very sad and angry mode.
3) jinx
- brings bad luck/shameful to family
e.g i smoke. Good GIrls dont smoke...
4) super emotional
- cried over simple things
e.g little bad remark that was threw at me from my mother,makes me cry.
5) has low esteem
- thinks nothing but bad of myself.
6) childish
- asked for a break up when we are in big mess...

he deserve much more better girls than me....

aarrgghhhhhhh.... immmm freaking booorreedd... cant upload a single shit on my photobucket.... i wanna upload things in here but due to ERROR in photobucket... i cant.. hhaaiiizzz..

as days goes by,im getting more and more lazy to upload my blog... but hhmm... anyway.. baby and me just completed our khursus.... last day of our khursus, we quarelled.. but we are okay after the whole day of khursus... and guezz what?? i didnt ate the whole day.. imagine the day before our last day of khursus,i didnt ate a single thing... from evening till the next day evening... 24hours of not eating.. so whats the consequences??? gastric pain.... hhhaaaiizzzz... but its okay.. as long as we are better after that...

so next month,we need to go to hdb place to seek for their advice, what kind of house we are eligible to apply... so that we can make the final decision when is the right time to apply for our house... what kinda house we should be looking for... where is the location we should look for and how much we should get ready to apply for the house...

as for june,nothing much.. just celebrating my 23rd birthday...

AND SO.... starting from july gonna be very busy for us...

im back.. nothing much 2 update... i bought 2 hamster... hahahaha...
presenting snow n putih.....
shall upload pics ltr.... i gt no mood 2 update... bye