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The Lady
Suriyati Jakaria
a.k.a Su/Yaya/Ana/Yati
20th June 1985
UOB Sales Banking


WishList
1. Quit Smoking
2. A new phone
3. Quit Levis
4. New Job
5. Rebond my hair
6. LeArn to cook good food

The Past
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008

Others

-Sarina - Has - Inaa -
- Deea - Zurah -

so end of the year is drawing near..
let see whats the big big even happened in my life for this year...

late of january 2007
joined and worked under Jay Gee Melwani's Group.
Working in
its been 11months have passed.i learnt so many things.. hope i can achieved whatever things that i wanna achieved...

mid of march 2007... 17th march 2007 to be precise..
engaged with muhd nazri bin mhd noor.
its a another stage of an eternity bonding...
i hope we will be together till the end of time...


early of july..(o5.07.07)
a new member in the family..
Adly Salihin bin muhd shahril..
im an aunty!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehe..



middle december 2007
Naz family came over to put the date for our wedding...
28/12/08
hhmm.... 2008 gonna be a fast one n memorable for naz n me...
so gdbye 2007....
say HELLO TO 2008..

im gonna miss someone who plays an important role in my life..
who never fail to be there for me whenever i need someone..
that is sky..
someone who makes me feels that things gonna be alrite...
i need to say gdbye to him too...
gosh.. feels like crying...
he is one of the reason why im standing strong in this relationship..
without him i am very sure i can end up in the hospital again...
but naz told me that he wanna change for the better of us...
i am very sure that i will be giving this chance to prove himself that he is willing to change and i will see him changing..
slowly...
last msg for him...
i know he wont be reading this.. but would like say it..
abg,chub would like to say i am very sorry if i hurt ur feelings..
i will always remember u in my mind and heart,abg..
noone can ever replace u... u r indeed someone special....
how i wish i can never lose u... but i have to... im with naz.. my happines is with him...
i hope naz and i can create happiness that we long for...
but abg thanks for the happiness that u created for me... not even naz gave me such happiness... abg,chub doakan abg akan jumpa seorg wanita yg akan mengharumi hidup abg..

naz... huney... i know u will feel sad for this confession but its the fact..
im leaving the happiness that was never meant to be mine forever.. im leaving for u...
i really hope u tak sia2kan i and sia2kan aper yg telah i lakukan... i really hope u gonna change...
im giving u this chance...

why am i crying??? why??????
maybe because im afraid the past repeat itself and i got noone to cheer me...im afraid naz gonna hurt me like in the past... how am i suppose to handle it??? what if he shout and raise his voice??? aku tak nak pendamkan rase kecewa dan sedih.. if aku buat gitu, aku takut one day aku tak dpt take it... please naz... lets build happiness... please let me feel that im needed in ur life....

im going to sleep...

so... last 2 days.. went to bbq with other havana's peeps... nothing much... but had a good laugh n cheap fun.. heh...
as for yesterday, was my morning shift... ate dinner at pizza hut.. puas jugak makan pizza... later at night talk to him.. he n his forever temper.. geram aku.. lamer2 aku leh jadi giler.. but he said well sort of a promise wont push me soo hard till i go crazy.. well tgk lar mcm maner... hopefully dier tak jadi mcm naz yg aku kenal dulu...
we are okay for now... haiz.. aku semakin takut nak kahwin ngan dier everytime aku tink of his attitude and mine.. can love overcome all odds???? hopefully.... better be...
thats for all now...

naz n me are still not in gd terms eventho earlier of the day, he came along to meet my family for some celebration of my mum's birthday..

as much as he dont want to come... i dont want him to come too...

but its my mum request...

so after the heavy lunch at pizza hut tampines mall...
i straight go work and he went toilet...
i msged him while he was in the toilet..

he can go back by all means...

and of coz he did...

on the last saturday...
i met sky and his frens.. as usual went to have dinner at changi... nasi lomak ler...
hehe...

its was pouring.... so have to slacked under the void deck....

but then again... we still ride when it was raining...

went to his void deck at first...

he need to get some stuff...


so bobal punyer bobal....

he send me back home....

some pix...





bsk off...

meeting sky again...

dn knw go where..

i wanna feel content..
dont wish to tink of naz.... jz wanna ferget tings...
he is busy with work n easily ferget of me..

so y shld i tink of him n get hurt in the end??
might as well go out n relax my mind......

tekak nk mkn durian....

tommorow can???

this is it....
giving up again...
i told him off...
its really getting on my nerves...
i just cant take it anymore..
im moving on....

so dat day his parents came to my house to make the date arrangements...

well...

i believe im not for him...

seems that only me have to understand him..

but he has the slightest understanding of my feelings..

whatever it is...

i dont want to think abt him anymore...


im giving up...

i got nothing much to update really.. a friend of mine is getting married tommorow...
will be going there..

had a stiff conversation with naz yesterday..

kinda pissed off how he got my attention...

ckp aku attention seeker padehal dier sendirik attention seeker jgk...

hampeh!!!

oh psst...

i got a new phone..

tk mu jeles...

its w880i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


muahaha...

its slim... its sleek and its a walkman phone.....


hehehe...

he msged me this morning...

HAPPY 27th MONTHS VERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wth hell...
i fergot all about it...

2years and 3months.....

goodness.. time flies...

yesterday i relief at Lucky Plaza...
wel nothing much there.. just do whatever i can do.. the peeps are fun..
some cocks up here and there but i manage to over come overthing..
well relief in-charge uh.. lina is taking MC unpaid leave again...
aku cover dier nyer pantat again and again lagi dier nak carik pasal ngan aku...
org yg tk kenang jasa budi org jadi gini la...
hhhaaaiizzzzz........
but anyway few things that i want to blog in here regarding yesterday..
yesterday naz fetched me..
at first i dont want to see him...
but he kinda coax me.....
so i gave in and met him.....
i gave him silent treatment all~~~~~~~~~~~~~ the way...
well.. basicly i just remain quiet...
he tried to coax me again and again...
he bought me ice cream and everything...
melted ice cream to be precise...
haha..
upon reaching the block near my house.. we sat..
kinda cute when i see him trying his very best to make me smile...
he is a real big monkey uh!!!!!!
so he kinda talk things out uh....
n everything goes back to normal pelik uh si dekni....
yg penting aku syg dier.,...


ok nari aku nk beli hp aru.. till den... bye...

I'm leaving this relationship....
i don't know what to call it...
break up i think...
i wanna go far away from you for awhile..
i know you will be reading this...
so there... you got it all...
you are on your own...
so what about our engagement?
if you wanna call it off, then its about time....
i don't want to coax myself and tell myself that everything will be alright...
I'm too tired alright..
seems that he just don't even give a single Fuck about my feelings..


anyway
you have a Gd rest since u r sick...

no point working hard and earn money if its just matter of time that everything will be gone...

its just matter of time that i really pull myself together and leave everything...
even if i will get critics from my family...
i don't care...
my family is one of the reason why i stayed with him...

so now i wanna concentrate on my career and driving license...
i have few thousands in my bank.. that's merely my savings... every month i wanna save $100 only instead of $300.. i wanna use the money for my driving license
i also wanna start seeing other guys... i just wanna know all different type of guys out there...

so till then...