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The Lady
Suriyati Jakaria
a.k.a Su/Yaya/Ana/Yati
20th June 1985
UOB Sales Banking


WishList
1. Quit Smoking
2. A new phone
3. Quit Levis
4. New Job
5. Rebond my hair
6. LeArn to cook good food

The Past
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008

Others

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- Deea - Zurah -

im broke.. im broke... im broke.... uurrgghhh!!! cepat la besok... hopefully i can see $1.3K in my account.... please please...

so lets start talking about work... so work... as u all knw... there's lots and lots of paper work to be done... but i am glad i am all prepared.. today eric will be coming dow to our work place but the thing is im off today... hopefully my teammates knws wat to say and all... hmm...

anyway yesterday night had a stiff conversation with deary naz... simply why?? because he was jealous that i am actually so close with sky n not him.. and he is very much unhappy that i am actually engaging some activities with sky.. not bad activities... just fishing with his friends... he once asked me why i dont like nazs' interest but im willing to try fishing?? but hello..what do u expect?? me playing soccer?? gsh that gonna be ugly.. i dont really favour soccer but hell.. i was there seeing u play soccer... i am sorry that i cannot be there for u 24/7 when u are with abg mans' soccer match.. u knw that my schedule at work is damn tight!! haiz... but i did wanna go... whatever it is.... he did apologise for being such jealous fiance.. sape yg tk syg tunang oooiii.. aku pun sayang... hehe... ok la... next mth... will be celebrating our 2nd year aniversary of being together cum 6th mth of engagement.. we will be celebrating at ZZOOOOOO!!!! yes ZZZOOOOO!!! been wanting to go to the zzoooooooooooooo fooor a vvveerrrryyyy lllooooonnnnngggg tttiiiiimmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
WWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh oh.. another thing.. i will be having Dinner and Dance vvveeryyyy ssoooonn.. im all excited for next month event....

naz n me are back together.. seems that we cant let go of each other.. we tried but we took back our words... is this love,baby?? one thing for sure... i love u,dear...

then today is my off day.. and i went to work early in the morning... had this project coming up.. i was selected to be the head category of ladies...
hopefully i can carry out my duties smoothly... so everyday i need to report my merchandise update... whats my UPT, ATV, sales performance and etc etc...
so many things to do...
stress.. so i guess i need to buy a small notebook... its for my reference,lor... so when to Retail Executive were to ask me at least i have my handybook to go along... InsyaAllah that i can do a better job... ouh there's new girl onboard... she's a full time attachement.. she is one of my teammates.. need to train her once more... so thats about it...

as for my atuk... he already discharged from hospital.. thank god its nothing serious... but my grandpa's foot still in a not soo good condition.. i pray for his better health...

for Muhd Nazri Bin Mohd Noor

Indah terasa bila cinta tercipta
Memadu kasih janji bersama
Bersama-sama melafaz kata cinta
Gurau senda dan tawa berdua

Tapi kini semuanya kenangan
Kau pergi tanpa pesan

Mana janjimu yang kau lafazkan dulu
Hidup dan matimu bersamaku
Rela kau pegi walau hati disakiti
Biarkanlah aku sendiri

Airmata menjadi penawar
Akanku simpan semua jadi kenangan oh... oh... oh...

Pergilah kasih, pergilah sayang
Tinggalkan aku (pergilah sayang)
Biarkan saja kenangan berlalu
Antara kau dan aku
Pergilah sayang


No matter what i love u deeply...
im sorry


one more video to show.. if he eva feels this way.. please tell me.... sigh...
i know he wont...




well nt a gd day to start with... i was dragging my feet to work... i was still exhausted of energy due to helping my bro's place.. u know yesterday after crybercafe-ing... i went back to my bro's place... sat down and start talkng to my aunts... and to suprise... naz's family came down... i was like.. wooaahh.. their motive?? im not too sure... but i told his mum everything uh... i just need to pour everything... but i know me and him will not work things out... as he.. will be in forever not satisfying, angry and egoistic behaviour.. as for me... i will be sad and disapointments... oh btw.. i even told my bro about me n him already.. and he said he wanted to talk to naz... but the question is... will naz meet him... i dont think so urh... knowing his character he wont accept anyone's advices... in his eyes.. what he did was a right thng... ouh whatever.. i just need to look ahead...
ouh well back to my main purpose of blogging... okay... in the morning.. i messaged him telling him that i will be giving back his ring and money by the end of the month.. i dont know if he gets the messaged at all because there's no reply...
then later in the afternoon,i called my mum... i heard my granddad hospitalized.. my mum told me that he was already warded... haiz... tommorow i will be be visiting him... i hope he will get better soon...
so already 2 sad thing happens..
another thing was ANGELINE.. the big FREAK in Levi's management... she faxed to Vivo Levi's.. its a memo... there will be short meeting this friday.. and it conducted by her first thing in the morning... confrim we'll get "butter" by her...
reason being 2 complain in 2 weeks..
our place down by 20K
urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thats 3 altogether...
first - Declared Broke Off with Naz
Second - My granddad hospitalized
third - "Buttering" meeting with angeline...
AARRGGGHHHHHHH!!!! stressfull~~~~!!!

most inportantly i hope i will just relax about Naz issue thingy...
Yes i do love him... dearly in fact... deeply madly... hhmm... but he's not tat sensitive in this issue..
well its okay uh... as long he is alright...

so sky...
ooppss.. i knw he will be dead angry with me as i contacted sky.. to tell the truth only sky knows my condition from the start i got back to naz... till now.. he knows everything... he was the one i confided... yes indeed he put hopes on me but...entah la... cannot la.. i dont think i can accept sky soo soon... yah naz ignored me.. but its okay... just one day wen i already got over everything and starting to accept new people in life... then perhaps i will accept sky..

well i got nothing more to update in here... gd nite everyone.... bubye...

by the time everyone got this entry... i would like to confess everything in here..
i da tak sanggup nk go on like this...
im letting everyone go... building a new life...
hopefully he will be happy without me..
having me in his life miserable with everything..
im lettingu go n will never turn back...
stay angry with me forever...
hate me all u want...
i dont care anymore...
im at cybercafe with sky... i cried and cried and cried... i really cant help it this time...
i need someone to talk to... i pour everything to him..

im really happy for him... he now is living happily.. he nw stablized himself...
i wish him to get a new gf... no im not going for him... yes he is nice.. but cukup la dgn aper yg i ader... i just need to settle everything nicely... i guess i will talk to my parents abt naz and me... i hope they agreed to call it off... my dad saw me crying hardly just now... so does my brother... but they didnt asked me what happened but im sure after the ceremomy,they gonna ask me.. Didalam hati naz... tak der sesaper yg bertakhta... if he loves me... he will take care of my heart... he wouldnt shout at me... he thinks by using violence things gonna be alright...

So last off day.. we went out.. just me n him.. yeay!! first of all we went to Plaza Singapura.. to book our ticket.. we watched Rush hour.. but we took 6pm show... so we reached there at ard 1plus.. after we booked to ticket and all we headed down to far east by feet... yeah!! its been quite sometime we walked hand in hand.. hehe... we stumble to this shop.. we bought ourselves a new pait of shades... cool shades i should say... huney paid 2/3 of it... hehe.. thanks huney... then we headed down to far east plaza... we had our lunch there... its a feast man... so huney had hor fu and i had thai fried ride.. on top of everything we ordered pandan leaf chicken and seafood tom yam soup.. it was damn delicious!!! u guys should try it... haha.. so in the mean time while waiting for our food.. we camwhore.. haha... sempat...


my huney bee... hehehe


sue swit... hahaha

and so... the leftover..



the meal cost me $28.60.. pretty cheap... ehehehe...
then after a very heavy meal we went to play pool... as usual.. i won... for free.. huney keep on making mistakes over and over again.... he played so hard... and as for me.. so slacked.. but then still... i won.. hahaha...

after the game its time for us, to go back to plaza singpura... but before that i went to buy some donuts for us... we sneaked the donuts in.. hahaha.... the donuts are yummy yummy yum!!! there was this chocolate donut where the chocolate is not only outside the donut... there's yummilicious cream donut inside... POWER!!! heard of donut factory?? yeah... u guys shld try and buy the donuts there...

before we went in PS, we smoked for awhile... and again... camwhore..








posing our shades!! hehe...

at 6pm, we reached the place.. and we are just in time... hehe... the movie is hilarious la!! RUSH HOUR 3!!! we watched the sneak preview... so its cost alil bit high.. 9.50 for one person... huney paid for it... u knw wen we were watching, huney ut the donuts on the other seat.. we thought that noone will be seating there then there were this minah dgn selambe nk dudok... nasib baik my huney was fast.. if not bye2 donut.. haiz... but on top of everything... i enjoyed my day...



girl... u got a serious attitude problem... you are as old.. but ur attitude failed to reflect your age... grow up,girl... think of other feelings before you say people how hurt people did to u... what goes around comes around... karma,girl... karma... remember that... chill.. you got looks but your attitude sucks to the core,girl... you wanna have a gd life??? earn it... dont yearn it... wtf uh... sometimes you are as fragile but u refused to agree to it.. when people did to you, people will shout at u like an animal... this is your flaw.. noone dares to tell u that.... hahaha.... if i dont have friend like u in my life,i dont regret an inch.. you're popular??? you're pretty??? but how many people really stays in your life??? 4??? 3??? 2??? 1??? who are those who really there for you when you're sad??? who are those who are there when you're happy??? many rite??? so what do u have to do??? put a fake smile on your face and pretend everything is alright... you people to overcrowd you so therefore be happy always...
you think pay other guy's expenses shows that you got a pure heart???
pure heart my foot!!!! hahaha.. you are just plain stupid lady with pretty cute face... which everyone adores...
but with attitude like a piece of cannibal who eats humans internally??? well thats whole piece of shit,girl...

anyway... today me going out with naz... hopefully everything goes smoothly....

here i am.. having my offday.. guez wat? my dear bought me a new hp... Motorola v3xx.. its has everything and most of all it is a flip phone and i loike.. ouh well.. its kinda 50\50 thingy.. however its more on him because without him.. i wont be getting a nw phone.. thanks huney baby.. hanks,b.. thanks alot... muacks..

some pix to share...


i took this pic using my nw hp.. i loike!!! thankie u... huney... i likke!!! i loike!!! i loike!!!!

Muhd Nazri Mhd Noor Msg me.. very touching and meaning...
OK i forgive u... forgive me too...
loves u syg,,,
happy 23rd aniversary to u...

MUACKS!!!!

can i hug u now...

THIS IS LOVE ,EVERYONE

i tried to work things out.. i even started talking nicely... i open up the conversation in the nicest way and in my nicest tone... but what did i get... his shoutings... his temper.. his anger...

im giving up...

im giving up on u....
im giving up on me...
im giving up on us...

didnt sleep the whole night... my head is spinning.. im crying.... gosh even typing all these, i cant help myself but to cry.. im falling sick again... my coughing worsen... i just hope i just be in a state of coma... everything standing still....

huney,if you're reading this.. i know u are angry... but all i could say is... i am sorry... but im too weak to go through this.. i just cant bring myself together... my heart, mind and soul... in ur eyes.. im wrong.. i believes in ur parents' eyes.. im wrong too... i mean if im good.. u wouldnt have shouted at me.. right? its okay if your parents didnt hear my side.. i faham... and its fine for me.. i just want u to know that deep inside my heart i loves u... i really do... its just that im not good enough for you... maybe someone out there is way better than me.. i really believes in that... im just not someone who can just forget what u did to me.. the shouting and all... as for u, u can forget what u did to me... but i just cant... its really hurts me deeply... it has a real great impact on me.. well like i mention yesterday night... "i will leave u alone..." this 5 word sentence means everything,dear... u take care of yourself.... i am sorry... im just not good enough for you... i am just as bad... upon reading all this, need not to look for me.. because i dont wish to quarell with you anymore... im too weak and cant bear u shouting at me.. please dear, never i did shouting at u.. im nt an animal that you can keep shouting at me... never i did toys with your feelings, never did i make u feels you are the most lowly creature on earth.. i dont know y on earth in your mind,im always in the wrong.. its okay uh.. i already accepted all these for you... but i am just too weak... like i mention earlier... i da tk berdaye... i dont know how to make things right anymore... i did hambat hati u balik... i believe u didnt see all this... its okay uh... haiz... i dont know whatelse to say.. huney.... syg... please dont be angry anymore okay,dear?? im a nomore in ur life... noone will ever react to ur reactions... noone will ever feels offended with you anymore... noone will ever bug u to meet... noone will ever ask u to accompany for lunch.. noone will ever disturb u anymore... i will leave u alone...

how i wish i could just hug him and cry out loud in his arms... i really wanted to do that... but no... i cant... he is better off without me...

Gosh why am i crying so bad.. let it go,Suriyati Jakaria... Its over.. it just dont work out... Suriyati Jakaria, This thing happen because you are the mistake in his life... remember that and just let it go... just remember one thing... u r not good enough for him... its better for u to leave his life alone.. he is better off without you..

ALANGKAH INDAHNYER SEKIRENYER AKU TIDAK MEMPUNYAI HATI DAN PERASAAN.. haiz... evenif he is the cause,why must i be the reaction??? why must there be a reaction..??? its my fault to react... well like i mention.. nothing i did is right... i am the mistake..