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The Lady
Suriyati Jakaria
a.k.a Su/Yaya/Ana/Yati
20th June 1985
UOB Sales Banking


WishList
1. Quit Smoking
2. A new phone
3. Quit Levis
4. New Job
5. Rebond my hair
6. LeArn to cook good food

The Past
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008

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orite this my 100th entry.. hehe whatever... im trying my very best to stay cool as much as i can.. i let my dear go yesterday.. i didnt hear from him eversince and i didnt even msged him... seriously im noone special... i got nothing to be my his side... yes im looking down on myself.. as much as he told me to... i just cant help.. its really stuck in my brain... a loser i am... well i guess its okay... as long as i feel like he deserve someone better,i will just stay away.. wont be contacting him... i mean what i say this time... i dont want him to suffer.... i dont want him to divorce me at the end of the day... im just not good enough.. maybe someone else is much more better being patience for him and be the right gal... im nowhere any of it... haiz...
let me summarize what i think of myself...

1) big spender
-like to buy thing that i dont really need.
e.g threw 1/4popcorns after the movie. bought a big combo eventho i juz had my meal. bought the combo juz because i want to munch the popcorns.
2) rude child
- remain quiet
e.g someone came but i didnt went out to SALAM the visitor. reason being i was very sad and angry mode.
3) jinx
- brings bad luck/shameful to family
e.g i smoke. Good GIrls dont smoke...
4) super emotional
- cried over simple things
e.g little bad remark that was threw at me from my mother,makes me cry.
5) has low esteem
- thinks nothing but bad of myself.
6) childish
- asked for a break up when we are in big mess...

he deserve much more better girls than me....