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The Lady
Suriyati Jakaria
a.k.a Su/Yaya/Ana/Yati
20th June 1985
UOB Sales Banking


WishList
1. Quit Smoking
2. A new phone
3. Quit Levis
4. New Job
5. Rebond my hair
6. LeArn to cook good food

The Past
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008

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i tried to work things out.. i even started talking nicely... i open up the conversation in the nicest way and in my nicest tone... but what did i get... his shoutings... his temper.. his anger...

im giving up...

im giving up on u....
im giving up on me...
im giving up on us...

didnt sleep the whole night... my head is spinning.. im crying.... gosh even typing all these, i cant help myself but to cry.. im falling sick again... my coughing worsen... i just hope i just be in a state of coma... everything standing still....

huney,if you're reading this.. i know u are angry... but all i could say is... i am sorry... but im too weak to go through this.. i just cant bring myself together... my heart, mind and soul... in ur eyes.. im wrong.. i believes in ur parents' eyes.. im wrong too... i mean if im good.. u wouldnt have shouted at me.. right? its okay if your parents didnt hear my side.. i faham... and its fine for me.. i just want u to know that deep inside my heart i loves u... i really do... its just that im not good enough for you... maybe someone out there is way better than me.. i really believes in that... im just not someone who can just forget what u did to me.. the shouting and all... as for u, u can forget what u did to me... but i just cant... its really hurts me deeply... it has a real great impact on me.. well like i mention yesterday night... "i will leave u alone..." this 5 word sentence means everything,dear... u take care of yourself.... i am sorry... im just not good enough for you... i am just as bad... upon reading all this, need not to look for me.. because i dont wish to quarell with you anymore... im too weak and cant bear u shouting at me.. please dear, never i did shouting at u.. im nt an animal that you can keep shouting at me... never i did toys with your feelings, never did i make u feels you are the most lowly creature on earth.. i dont know y on earth in your mind,im always in the wrong.. its okay uh.. i already accepted all these for you... but i am just too weak... like i mention earlier... i da tk berdaye... i dont know how to make things right anymore... i did hambat hati u balik... i believe u didnt see all this... its okay uh... haiz... i dont know whatelse to say.. huney.... syg... please dont be angry anymore okay,dear?? im a nomore in ur life... noone will ever react to ur reactions... noone will ever feels offended with you anymore... noone will ever bug u to meet... noone will ever ask u to accompany for lunch.. noone will ever disturb u anymore... i will leave u alone...

how i wish i could just hug him and cry out loud in his arms... i really wanted to do that... but no... i cant... he is better off without me...

Gosh why am i crying so bad.. let it go,Suriyati Jakaria... Its over.. it just dont work out... Suriyati Jakaria, This thing happen because you are the mistake in his life... remember that and just let it go... just remember one thing... u r not good enough for him... its better for u to leave his life alone.. he is better off without you..

ALANGKAH INDAHNYER SEKIRENYER AKU TIDAK MEMPUNYAI HATI DAN PERASAAN.. haiz... evenif he is the cause,why must i be the reaction??? why must there be a reaction..??? its my fault to react... well like i mention.. nothing i did is right... i am the mistake..