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The Lady
Suriyati Jakaria
a.k.a Su/Yaya/Ana/Yati
20th June 1985
UOB Sales Banking


WishList
1. Quit Smoking
2. A new phone
3. Quit Levis
4. New Job
5. Rebond my hair
6. LeArn to cook good food

The Past
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008

Others

-Sarina - Has - Inaa -
- Deea - Zurah -

im super duper sad... i really give up in everything... everything is destroyed..
i just hate everything that really suppose not to happen but happen.. yesterday planned to go out right??
guess what??

we didnt....

as usual...

he get caught up by something at work..
shagged...
over-shot...
me called..
many many many times...
after many many many times...
den he picked up...
quarell...
we didnt went out..
but i did...
went out with sky.....
he just dont bother...
i dont bother..
went to causeway...
he didnt call..
but kak lina did..
something happened at work..
one of the customer...
my customer to be exact...
she used stolen credit card...
i didnt check the signature..
i didnt check the card name..
she rushed me..
i dont know whats the outcome...
maybe i've to pay the items that she bought..
bank retrived back the stuff that being transmitted..
so i've to pay for the losses...
worst scenario... i get terminated for my carelessness...
i dont care anymore for anything..
so back to my story..
went to causeway...
surveyed for a new hp...
den got no mood anymore..
sky consoled me...
off we went to play pool at orchard...
den went to bugis...
surveyed for hp... its 7plus..
still no sign of any messages from naz..
i called him.. but didnt picked it up...
afterawhile..
he called...
we talked...
he seems that he got no interest in having conversation...
i called him on and off..
he wanted to meet...
but im still angry with him...
its not that im with sky...
sky very understanding..
eventho he dont know whats going on..
but he just wants to know if im gonna be alright..
i know i wont be...
thats y we didnt meet...
i didnt buy anything today.. wanted to..
but haiz...
den went home damn early...
i reached home at around 9pm...
at night we quarelled again...
10pm..
quarelled..
11pm..
same thing...
12pm...
it seems that its never ending...
1pm...
things got worst...
1.30pm..
i didnt know what happened already..
6.30pm
no messages from him...

i thought he's having his OT today...
haiz...
whatever...
if it ends this way...
den be it...
im sick with everything...
maybe we're not fit for each other...
maybe im not ready...

whatever reason...
still im dissapointed with everyone...
dissapointed with him and myself...

i shall end my entry here now...

ouh yah... sky didnt know what happened to me and naz..
its not a topic in out conversation.. but he somehow knew i was sad..
he told me not to..
he will do anything to make me happy..
just dont let sky know the reason that makes me sad..
still... thanks sky...